Is it egotistical to call oneself a “guru”… a “guru of tantra”? 

Is it egotistical to call oneself a “guru”… a “guru of tantra”? 

If that is my job, then I should be able to tell people what my profession is. If I choose that path as mine, then is it not a lesser crime to be able to talk about what one does for a living than to be silent about it because some doctrine says that I should be humble?
The act of being consistent with a principal because it is labeled as “good”, or from a mindset that “defying it implies threatening honor and integrity” is an action inherently rooted in ego itself. Although this practice certainly can promote spiritual growth, as it is in essence a form of discipline, we eventually want to move past this stage, past the attachment to what is “good” or “bad”. Ultimately, if a belief is the source of motivation and drive for one’s manifestation in this hyper-dimensional existence (and hence one’s expression and speech), then there are undoubtedly going to be limitations on one’s life. A belief system (in this case: the idea that we must be humble at all times and at all costs) that is held as an absolute truth without question is nothing more and nothing less than a construct of the mind in the form of a system of values… a program that runs on a loop in the same way your computer works.
So NO.
I would argue that in this case it is absolutely not egotistical to refer to oneself as a guru, if in fact that is the Truth…. 

In fact… in the case that this is the Truth, and none other than the Truth, then the ability to see past the social expectation of you to be humble and reserved and to wave the flag of truth despite the fear of being criticized and ostracized for your arrogance is in reality the complete opposite of an act of ego: it is an act of sacrifice and austerity. It is an act of pride to try to make sure that you are appearing humble to all of your onlookers. Swallowing that pride and allowing the Truth to flow freely from your mouth–even and ESPECIALLY if it is regarding yourself–is the ultimate act of humility.

So… YES.
This year I am confirming that my profession is as a Guru of Tantra.

It is who I am. It is who I was born to be. It is the state for which I sacrificed an entire life, education,  and material existence to embody. (Read more) A state of being desired… now acquired.

Om. Om Om.
Hari Om Tat Sat.



Exorcisms and Demons

Exorcisms and Demons

Johnny: Some years ago, in Hollywood, I saw with my own eyes a man possessed by a demon. For a second that demon lost control over that man and the man looked me straight in the eye and begged for help. I’m just letting you know – that shit is real.

Me: I’ve seen it too

Johnny: I’d love to hear about that Alix 🙂

Me: Johnny… I’ve seen it several times with several people… as this is part of my “job” on this planet… helping lost people, guiding, etc… and part of this means that I do exorcisms, and it is one of the very unsavory yet rewarding aspects of my work…. Real true exorcisms take a LOT of time in most situations…. and sometimes its grip is so strong that it manifests as the person vocally expressing his experience as a bonafide demon having grips over him… such is the power, weight, and gravity of the darkness that steers his soul and every action

On Rehab for Addiction…


On Dec 20, 2016, at 2:48 PM, Gaurav wrote:

Hi Alix,

Need your advice on the following situation. My brother just came out of rehab after 2 months and is in search of spiritual guidance to understand future course of action in life. I think he is missing the aim in the life.

Can you please suggest what can help him in seeking this? Do you advise him to go for any course?

Your advice will be highly appreciable.



Dear Gaurav,

I am so sorry to hear about your brother. Unfortunately I have seen countless cases such as this one, and many of them people very very close to me.

What I can say to you is this:

Your brother must be READY for help. There is nothing that will make him transform, absolutely NOTHING, until he has made a firm decision within himself to change.

If he is open to change and enthusiastic about it, certainly my own course is an option. But this will only be suitable for him if he feels an affinity for the types of teachings that I offer, if he is inspired by me personally, and if he is moved by what I offer.

Aside from my own course, any of the energetic traditions of the world will help to transform his energy (Kung Fu, Tai Chi, Shamanism, Taoism, Buddhism, Yoga, Tantra, or something as simple as weight training or kick boxing)… But in the end it comes down to his own WILL.

As you say that your brother is actively in search of spiritual guidance, this is a sign that he is in the process of transformation already. Please let him know about me, and if he would like we can set up a phone session or eventually an on-site course. It is hard for me to give any further advice without speaking to him personally…

Please let me know if you have any other questions. And I wish you the best of luck.

Best regards,

Desire to Watch Pornography vs. Devotion to Higher Purpose (Part 2)


Question from Kamaljeet:

Ok i want to know from you a question’s answer, i m hesitatinh to say you but i know a women guru can gives more right explanation than a man does

Is watching nude pictures are good if someone is watching only for beauty not for any wrong intention?


There are many degrees to this answer. Watching nude photos is ok if it is not causing harm to you or to anyone else.

And, the truth is, that as we refine our consciousness the desire to look at pornography goes away…. but if we restrain ourselves from the fulfillment of these desires, then they can explode into a situation of an unhealthy mind.
Best for you is to not worry about watching nude photos at this point (unless of course you are looking at something that is violent or child pornography… this is a different case entirely).
The craving for intimacy is a normal human trait… i recommend that you seek out the company of a live woman to satisfy your desires.


Ya you r true mam, but I’m not yet married.


 Yes… well, sex does not require marriage. though if you have made the commitment to wait to have sex until marriage, then, this is a choice that you will have to navigate 🙂


I also want to tell you one thing. I have taken dikshas of durga saptsati from avdhoot baba shivananda.


Diksha does not help unless you do the work yourself. You must do the work… diksha is like opening the door… but you must walk through it and you must walk the path, climb the mountain.


No i want to tell you if i had not taken any diksha or connected to any guru these thoughts never ever comes to my mind

If these coming that means guru gracing me and nothing else. The only thing is that i does not want to cheat my guru. Sorry guru.


That is possible… diksha can awaken the kundalini energy and this can cause intense sexual desire in some people . It is normal… do not worry. 
You can practice sheetali breath to cool your energy. You can also practice some advanced practices to channel this energy… your guru must have given you some practices, right?


Ok mam. No mam i have not yet taken advance prati prasav sadhnas or so called soksham kriyas


Then I strongly suggest that you talk with your guru about practices to channel this energy… tell him that the diksha has awakened strong kundalini in your mooladhara and swadhisthana and you are ready to learn how to channel it into the higher chakras and circulate it….
I can also teach you these practices if you book some sessions with me.


Ok mam I’ll try.
I m interested to know About you mam. You seems to be a fantastic personality


Otherwise… I can suggest that you can masturbate while imagining making love to the Divine Shakti… That you are worshipping her and she is worshipping you… this is a divine image… and this will also help you to relieve yourself


Sorry mam… Is that will good for me? Masturbating with Devine shakti will go wrong? I accepted her as my mother….


You are masturbating to images anyway, right? If you are worried about what you are doing… at least if you are devoting it to a divine purpose, you will feel a bit better about it.
Shakti is mother, lover, wife, virgin, witch… please see the 10 Mahavidyas…. Shakti has many personalities, and to see her only as ONE is limiting her greatness…. Tantra is about expasion and overcoming these limitations.


Hmm i have not thought that. Ok thanks mam.
Mam you guided me without thinking who i am , am i right or wrong , has good intentions or bad… what you suggests me i salute you from depth of my heart…


LOL. Thank you for that.


I pray to god to gives you more and more light and you always play a Devine medium of him for us


Please if you can make a small donation at some point it would be most helpful. 🙂


Namah shivay


Om namah shivaya

Right & Wrong in the Kali Yuga

Right & Wrong in the Kali Yuga

I wrote on my facebook page:

Sex, masturbation and even pornography are not wrong or dirty. What is wrong is to regard another being with less respect than yourself.

One comment from Narsee:

Could’nt understand. What are mentioned as ” not wrong” is individual opinion in this kaliyug , a world of Maayai (illusion) but if we are thinking of Kundalini
awakaning /self realisation etc etc. in the form of spiritualism, we have to overcome ” these” or instead of spiritualism lets call it as “Spirtlovism “

My reply:

It is not necessary to stop these actions in order to attain Kundalini awakening or self-realization Narsee… It is however necessary to have control over your energy, be able to harness it, to not be addicted, etc.

First I wrote “dirty” instead of “wrong”… and yes, “wrong” is a concept that is below that of cosmic consciousness… however we are speaking on a different level here than that at this moment.

And yes, this is a feature of the Kali Yuga, that several people that look like they are “good” are actually “bad”… or the quality of corruption. It is on this cosmic level that we can forget about “good” or “bad”, “right” or “wrong”, but when we are in our Earthly bodies and we are acting in the world, we choose a value system.

Many people abuse their tantric powers in this way and make others slaves.

Desire to Watch Pornography vs. Devotion to Higher Purpose

Desire to Watch Pornography vs. Devotion to Higher Purpose

Question from Kamaljeet:

Hi Ma’am i am a Sikh and also a devotee of universal mother maa durga. please forgive if my English is not good, but i m trying. mam i have my true faith, gratitude and love from my bottom of heart for my guru and my mother durga. But i m struggling with a kind of problem.on one side i love my guru and my mother durga but in other side i watches pornographic pictures. I m totally confused i dont know how i can deal with both of them in my life,which are totally two different poles of life. I can’t ignore my body’s passion it is infested in me by my god.on other side i can’t ignore my mother kaali or durga or my guru who tells me to watch every women or girl in the form of kaali or durga. then how can i think about any girl or women sexually. I m facing two absolutely opposite problems in one time. I tried many a time earlier not to watch sexuality explict materials and only to follow mother kaali but after some time the body passion in me ,pressuring me to watch those materials again and again. please mam dont take me negative i know it is not right to take suggestions from a women but i m stressed and i m not finding any solution for it.please mam suggest me help me




Hello Kamaljeet.

This is a wonderful question, and I am so happy that you have written me.I appreciate the courage with which you have contacted me with this issue. Many people have the same question as you and do not have the courage to ask. So thank you.

 Yes, you are experiencing a duality of mind. There is a very systematic way to overcome this. As I am not sure of your current state of body, it is hard for me to direct you over chat. I can suggest jyoti tratak if you are able to sit comfortably for 10 minutes.

If you are very serious about overcoming this affliction, I strongly suggest booking a Karmic Dissolution Package with me. You can do so by following this link.

Tantra, sex, & Kundalini



Namaste Guruji… In tantra what is need of having sex with various pairs. In our culture it is not at all permitted.
Kundalini energy is related to tantra?


There is no need necessarily for having sex with various pairs. That is an individual choice. Any guru that tells you that you MUST have sex with various people is not a true guru.
Tantra is about expansion of consciousness.
Some people feel that their consciousness is expanded by having sexual relationships with several people….
In higher levels of consciousness we are able to realize that we are all part of the same consciousness and that “We Are All One.” In that spirit some people decide to share sexual relationship in order to achieve this state of connection with the divine while in a couple or group.
Kundalini energy is related to Tantra, yes.
Very closely related.
However, we can cultivate Kundalini energy and have Kundalini experiences without fully practicing tantra.
There are many experiences in Tantra, and they happen when several different aspects of life are active. Kundalini energy is one of these aspects.

Love. Just love.

Love. Just love.

After posting a series of 3 photos of myself on facebook I got a comment from one woman:

Alix, What R U doing? Do U have a need for recognition, approval, validation that you are beautiful? I do not understand ur self-posts…..?? Sister to Sister, my love!

Followed by her posting on my wall:

You DO UNDERSTAND that you are beautiful and voluptuous, right?!



My response:

In true humility we completely leave behind the expectation for recognition (though, it is completely valid to have the understanding that recognition may ensue)… and that is not to say that if we do get positive recognition that we should be ungrateful. It also does not mean that we should hide our talents and attributes away so that they become dusty and their utility obsolete.

Allow yourself to thrive and blossom. Do not hide away your greatness from the world because of the fear that you might be judged for daring to reveal your beauty. You will do more good for the world if you contribute your greatness than if you hold it back so as not to offend the few that will mislabel you as an attention-seeker.

Be authentic. Love yourself. Love others. Be kind and compassionate. These are the only truths that matter.


How I got into science

How I got into science


On Oct 7, Alexis said the following:

Good to meet you. Appreciate so much being connected. I guess my first curiosity would be, how did you become interested in science specifically physics and computer science. This is also my interest.

Thanks 🙂


On Oct 26, Alix (Durgananda Saraswati) said the following:

Hi Alexis!

Thanks for being so patient.

I was basically brought into this world a scientist, and when I saw members of my family that were scientific professionals at a very young age (already 3 years old) I decided I wanted to be a physicist. I was also born with a very high spiritual inclination, and when it was time for university, I wanted to confirm my intuition by hard science so that I would have a firm support for the mysticism that came to me so effortlessly. Computer science itself is a very necessary compliment to any of the academic sciences in this day and age, and I was also attracted to it because of the “Matrix-style” AI culture that evolution is currently suggesting. I hope that shines some light on your questions, and I am happy to answer any more if you have any. In the meantime, perhaps you would like to check out the NGO I have been building the last 4 years Advancement of Civilization Effort. The site is ready for a big update when we can find the time or the help (would you like to help?!), and you can find it at