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Is it egotistical to call oneself a “guru”… a “guru of tantra”? 

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Is it egotistical to call oneself a “guru”… a “guru of tantra”? 

If that is my job, then I should be able to tell people what my profession is. If I choose that path as mine, then is it not a lesser crime to be able to talk about what one does for a living than to be silent about it because some doctrine says that I should be humble?
The act of being consistent with a principal because it is labeled as “good”, or from a mindset that “defying it implies threatening honor and integrity” is an action inherently rooted in ego itself. Although this practice certainly can promote spiritual growth, as it is in essence a form of discipline, we eventually want to move past this stage, past the attachment to what is “good” or “bad”. Ultimately, if a belief is the source of motivation and drive for one’s manifestation in this hyper-dimensional existence (and hence one’s expression and speech), then there are undoubtedly going to be limitations on one’s life. A belief system (in this case: the idea that we must be humble at all times and at all costs) that is held as an absolute truth without question is nothing more and nothing less than a construct of the mind in the form of a system of values… a program that runs on a loop in the same way your computer works.
So NO.
I would argue that in this case it is absolutely not egotistical to refer to oneself as a guru, if in fact that is the Truth…. 

In fact… in the case that this is the Truth, and none other than the Truth, then the ability to see past the social expectation of you to be humble and reserved and to wave the flag of truth despite the fear of being criticized and ostracized for your arrogance is in reality the complete opposite of an act of ego: it is an act of sacrifice and austerity. It is an act of pride to try to make sure that you are appearing humble to all of your onlookers. Swallowing that pride and allowing the Truth to flow freely from your mouth–even and ESPECIALLY if it is regarding yourself–is the ultimate act of humility.

So… YES.
This year I am confirming that my profession is as a Guru of Tantra.

It is who I am. It is who I was born to be. It is the state for which I sacrificed an entire life, education,  and material existence to embody. (Read more) A state of being desired… now acquired.

Om. Om Om.
Hari Om Tat Sat.

Love,
DurgaAlix

!!!CHRISTMAS TIDE: The Key to Ecstatic-Orgasmic Existence

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!!!CHRISTMAS TIDE: The Key to Ecstatic-Orgasmic Existence

Become aware of pain.

Become aware of the source of that pain.

That source is equivalent to the clinging to an idea of the way existence ought to be, but IS NOT.

In that sense that idea is NOT TRUTH beyond the FACT that it is an existence of suffering.

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Now see the actuality of the situation.

See existence in its PRESENT MANIFESTED STATE with a rational perspective. That rationality is bereft of the heat and passion of emotion. It is also lacking coldness. IT JUST *IS* THE WAY IT *IS* THE WAY IT *IS*.

AHHHHHHHH.  A sigh of relief.

This intricate state is the product of innumerable other happenings and is giving birth to innumerable other creations.

It is nothing short of ART!

GLORIOUS, COLORFUL, SENSATIONAL, ENRAPTURED BEING!

Breath air into that point.

SING THE PRAISES!

OH NIGHT DIVINE! OH NIGHT WHEN CHRIST WAS BORN!!!

OH NIGHT! OH NIGHT DIVINE!

FALL ON YOUR KNEES! OH HEAR THE ANGEL VOICES!

OH NIGHT DIVINE. OH NIGHT WHEN CHRIST WAS BORN.

OH NIGHT. OH NIGHT DIVINE!!!!!

Hope. Faith. Peace. Love. Believe.

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This message came to me in the minute that followed the thought:

There is an inherent element of faith in all that we believe. Faith is an integral part in any knowledge whether it be right or wrong knowledge, fancy, sleep or memory.

This reminds me of an event in my life I can use as an anecdote:

I once met a woman who did not believe that we had ever gone to the moon. She was a firm believer that the video of Niel Armstrong landing on the moon was a fake, filmed by the government.

This in itself is a form of knowledge, and who am I to judge whether it is right or not? It would take an act of faith to believe either way that Niel Armstrong landed on the moon or not. Even if I were Niel Armstrong, I must have faith that my subjective experience is real. So even knowledge of our own self takes an act of faith that we exist.

This is of course none-other than the epistemological question.

So what about Science? The name itself implies “knowledge”. And so even the things that we “prove” using the scientific method are still in some way based in faith. In fact any scientist by profession knows that in fact there is no real proof, but only supporting evidence.

The backbone of the scientific method is a form of criticism which attempts to constantly evolve our methods to include lesser and lesser bias. Nonetheless, the only experiment that can be completely non-biased is that of the Universe in its entirety: an integral over all of space-time. Unity.

The current scientific method rejects the incorporation of pure Unity into its toolbox in that it refuses to recognize conscious experience as a valid means for information acquisition. Though, conscious experience is, without a doubt, to be included in the integral over all of space-time.

We can deconstruct this idea to show that on a more fundamental level the scientific method reduces to none-other than “Ego”, as “Ego” reduces to none-other than “Dualism”: Ego if nothing else defines individuality of a given object or being by its separation from everything else; and so with the existence of Ego there can never be one single existence, but there will always be at least two: the individual and everything else.

Therefore, even our widely accepted form of information acquisition, the Scientific Method, reflects our attachment to Ego and worship of Dualism, as it makes a distinction between the quality of knowledge obtained by objective and by subjective means. However, technological developments are taking place at an extremely rapid rate, and this rejection of a complete view is being dissolved in the current metaphysical revolution, liberating and expanding our access to absolute truth.

This is the goal of Tantra.